First Week of Teaching..

Minggu lepas, I started my lecture.
And...It went well...I think la..
Huhu..
I teach Principles of Disease Prevention..
In the syllabus, some of the topic include epidemiology, triangle, communicable and non communicable disease. There are also some topic that I can't remember at all such as the chain of infection, the wheel.


I try my best to answer all question from the students, try my best to be prepared when ever I give the lecture.
I try my best but then aku cuma manusia biasa...
There is certain part that I can't answer on the spot...
Then what I do is I will ask other lecturers and give the answer to them next class....
Is that OK? What do you think?


But of course there are some things that made me laugh or blur.
One the question that made me speechless:
- Miss, kepialu tu apa? - this happened when I gave lecture on typhoid or in malay demam kepialu. Masa tu aku cuma terkebil-kebil sebab terkejut dengar soalan student tu.



There are other situation that I need to handle and the most important is to be patient...
And it make me really exhausted...
Be matured is  not easy but that is what I need to be...



That is last week's story..
This week punya cerita, lain pulak..
Tapi I will write lain kali pulak...
Sebab I AM TIRED.... really tired...
I need REST!!!!

Since When..

Since when I, who are so talkative become so silence??



Since when I talk to myself a lot than to others??




Since when I love to stay in the room all the time??




Since when I success to eat alone??






Since when???
Since when???
I myself not sure..
But what I know, I am not really like this type of life....
Feel so weird...



Lets be patient, NJ..
U need time to adapt...
Believe in yourself!!!!




Tak tau kenapa, but rasa macam nak nangis!!!
T______________T





Dan  di saat hati rasa pedih, aku dipujuk dengan ayat Ijat
"Auntie, auntie jadi cikgu ea?"
Entah kenapa, ayat tu bagi aku semangat untuk terus ke depan...
Thanks Ijat, Auntie sayang kamu!!!!

Berdiri Di Atas Kaki Sendiri...

DULU	SEKARANG
Balik kuliah sama2 dengan kawan2.	Balik keje sorang2
Kenal sangat dengan housemate	Tak sempat nak kenal.
Banyak mulut- duk bercakap jek	Tetiba jadi pendiam...
Makan malam ramai2	Makan malam sengsorang
Nak tido sempat borak2	Tido tanpa bercakap dengan sesapa pon
Boleh p jenjalan ramai2	Tak tau nak jalan mane and dengan sape

 
 These are the differences and it make me miss my friends a lot!!!!


Conclusion: I need to be independent and live on my own...


T_______________________T

Sedih...

I am sick and I am all alone...
T____________T

Rumah...kerja...

I moved already and I just talked to my roommate yesterday..
We both busy with our things and less time to meet and talk...
But, I know she is ok and we just need the time to know each other...


Yesterday, I had a chat with my friend..
And I just knew that she is married and have one child....girl...
Serious, I didn't know when she get married..
But then the baby girl is so cute...
She live at Kajang and I wish I could go there to meet her and the cute girl..
hahaha...


Last night, I got cold....suddenly..
And today my voice sound a little bit different...
Sore throat also come visit me...
Huhu..
Feel like I will get fever...
But I hope not...



I walked to work today!!!
Can I bangga with that???
hahaha...

You Took My heart Away

Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you
saw me through

Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
you take my hand to guide me home and now
I'm in love

You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold
you are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love

Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we stand
we'll never be alone²








Rasa nak menangis dgr lagu ni...
Tak tau kenapa....huhu
T______________________T

Terukir Di Bintang

Jika engkau minta intan permata tak mungkin ku mampu
Tapi sayangkan ku capai bintang dari langit untukmu
Jika engkau minta satu dunia akan aku coba
Ku hanya mampu jadi milikmu pastikan kau bahagia


Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi
Seribu tahun pun akan ku nanti… kan
Kamu…


Sayangku
Jangan kau persoalkan siapa di hatiku
Terukir di bintang tak mungkin hilang cintaku padamu



mendengar radio sambil membaca nota..
great!!!
hahaha

Moving to Ampang

Yesterday I moved to my new house...hahaha
Rented house, ok...

SO far, ok la...
There is 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms and also kitchen...
With rent 150 ringgit, I share a room with someone that I really don't know.
From yesterday, I met her once...then she went to work...
And until I slept, she didn't back yet....
In conclusion, I don't have chances to talk and to know her...


Yesterday also I met my ex-classmate, nurul asmak...
We had dinner together...
Talked about our job, friends and also personal things...
It has been long time ago since we talk...
Huhu...
Thanks a lot asmak, belanja saya makan.
I appreciate it!!!!



Monday blues, it really hard to wake up today...
But, I success ti woke up early...
huhu...
Waited for the bus but then I took the taxi...
hahaha...
The fare of course much much much cheaper than last week...
ALHAMDULILLAH...

First Day

Yesterday was my first day working at Consist College.
The day started smoothly. I got a taxi and the road is smooth and just a little bit jammed.
Arrived early, 7.45 am...
Then wait the HR at the cafe...
I got the chances to  observe the people and also the students.


Then, I met baiti a.k.a Kak chik...
After that, I was brought to my desk..
Just beside the door on the 5th floor.
All people here are so kind and willing to teach me if I don't understand anything...
I am very glad...
The environment also fine...

It just me who still not adapt to the environment and blur with everything...
A lot need to be learned and done.
And I need to study before classes so that I prepare to face the students...
I am AFRAID!!!


I am a person who lazy to read the long long longggggggg article and also the academic article...
Then, I wonder...doubting whether I can be a good lecturer...
Huu..
Sebab I never thought to be a lecturer or pengajar at all...


I need to change...improve myself right...
slowly...
And I really hope that I can be a good lecturer...
Pray for me okay....




Went back to Selayang yesterday evening, basah kuyup cause heavy raining...
And because of the rain, taxi fare reached 40++....
But, thanks to the driver, he took only 20...
I pray murah rezeki dia lepas ni...
Rasa sangat-sangat berterima kasih pada dia....


Now, hujan jugak...
Harap2 tak sampai ke petang...
huhu..
And mungkin balik lambat sebab nak elak jammed..
:)

I am HOME....

Yup, I am home and felt the emptiness inside my heart....
Suddenly felt that I lost something...



I miss u...
Budak2 kat GEMS sgt x patut.......
Sebab diorang la, I cried all the way home.
Miss you all so much!!!!!!!
Everything remind me of those people...
So sad!!!!!!

HIRED!!!!!

It is nearly a year that I dreamed to write the entry with this title....
ALHAMDULILLAH...
ALLAH makbulkan doa aku...


Consist College hired me....
I will start teaching next week...
Which means I need to leave my friends at GEMS...
As usual, everything has pro and cons..


I hired by the college..
The pro, I don't have to worry about my job...
The con is I need to leave GEMS...



To my friends at GEMS...

Aku pergi bukan bermaksud aku benci...
Aku pergi bukan bermakna aku tak sudi....
Aku pergi bukan untuk menyendiri....
Tapi aku pergi kerana tugas hakiki..



Sungguh, I'm not lie...
Half of my heart want to stay...
The other half ask me to go..
And this is the opportunity that I wait for nearly one year...


I will miss you guys...
I mean it..
Because you are the best company...
AND I believe that PROJECT DIAMOND can be the leading company...
I trust you...



Ah, I know no one will read this,
But thanks a lot to whoever support me, advice me and also stay  together with at all time...
I really appreciate it and only ALLAH can repays you back..
I love you guys....




Now, I am thinking....whether I can be a good lecturer or not...
What do you think???

Interview

Yup, last Monday I attended an interview for lecturer post at Consist College.
How was it? NO comment..
I did my best, tried hard to answer all question and I was shocked when the panel said that I need to do 'mock teaching' on the next day.
With no laptop, no internet..luckily my adik's housemate has laptop...so I tried my best prepared the slide...
The title I choose was HIRARC... the most simple one.


The next day, I went to the Consist College alone because my adik has to attend a kursus.
I tried to be a good presenter and teacher during the mock teaching session.
But I don't know the opinion of the panel.. 5 panel include 4 young lecturers.
So lets pray for me okay....
Its lie if I said I don't put any hope but then I am afraid if I will disappointed...
It will hurt me deep inside.



Right now, i already at Hotel Seri Malaysia Mersing.
Felt so stress since I tertinggal 3 days of classes.
So frustrating....
I don't know, felt lonely and sad...
And because of that I get angry with my friends..
Its not their fault but then I terasa lebih2...
I can't think la...
SO sorry guys, no intention to did that..
Really sorry...

There is a side of me that I not show to others because it is the bad side..

Don't push me or else you will regret when you know that bad side of me.....