Ogos..

Assalamualaikum.
Hello there...



Well, I guess I feel like to write again...
Before Ogos berakhir.
I love August...
Always..
And will forever love this month.
It is really special for me.



Happy bornday NJ.
Hehe..
Tahun ni dah melangkah ke angka 3.
Makin tua wei.
Hahahaha...
Terima kasih kepada yang wish..
Terima kasih jugak untuk semua doa.
Tq for the cake and flower.
Well...Takdelah banyak..but I do appreciate each of it.
I do.

And thanks to u...wish my birthday even lambat 3 hari.


He asked me, 'Macam mana nak stop kan angka tu?'
I guess I don't have the answer.
But I never want it to stop..
Because it could mean we die...kan?
Plus, I don't mind getting old.
It is the process of life.
Kang kalau tak tua tua, orang kata kita membela pulak kan?
Hehehe..



You know, once...I told mak..
'orang kalau tak kahwin lagi umur 30, nak amik anak angkat la,'
Mak senang je jawab, 'bukan senang bela anak,'
And now I know and realise it.
Mak betul..
dengan keadaan aku sekarang...kewangan, emosi dan mental..I am not ready to have that commitment yet.
But I do want my own child..
I am...
it just maybe not now...



Umur dah banyak...what have I achieve?
I got my Masters...apa lagi?
Dah ada lesen memandu even tak drive... hahaha..
My temper dah cool down a bit.. walaupun orang masih cakap aku garang..
hehe..
I have my aininoon cheesecake..which I am really proud of it. REALLY.
I could buy my 'wants' sendiri...tak mintak orang.. hehe
I own my electrical appliances sendiri.. ni pon kira pencapaian kan? haha
Tu je kot.
I dont know...


kadang kadang bila duduk sorang sorang, banyak benda fikir.
Especially bila perasan umur meningkat.
Lagi suka stay kat rumah..
Lagi suka abaikan perkara yang dulu rasa penting...
Makin suka bersendiri....
Tu tanda penuaan ke?
Hahahaha...


Selalu je jiran and students tanya..
Bila nak kahwin.
Even, masa wish besday pon... soalan tu keluar jugak..
Hahaha..
Boleh tak jawab, tanya la Allah...He plan all for me?
Boleh ke?
hahaha



Sape tak nak kahwin kan.
Tapi kita dahulukan adik la.
Hehe..
Penat menaruh harapan when end up we got disappointed.
Bukan tak ada kawan kawan nak kenalkan, tapi takut.
Kalau benda sama berulang, I just don't know if I can handle it again...
Let just say, I have my faith in Allah and I know He plan the best for me.
Kan?



Thats all my merepek.
Take care...
Till next entry, who knows when it will be.



xoxo,
NJ